Thinking of you

Had practice today from 8.30-11, well it's supposed to start at 8.30 but I was late =p Sorryyyyyy Ka Zie! 0=) Atupun psal kena msg slh venue =p

I woke up around 6 actually but since it was still early and lalah mseh from the day before sambung Zzzzz then 7~ Owh 5 mins lagi~ 7.50~ 10 seconds.... ada bunyi 8.50! =O AIYOO! Rush here there, baruth kan mencari brg as usual ;) then jln! I thought aku yg paling akhir. but then awu plg yg plg akhir but I mean there were only 6 of us ='( And mcm was expecting ada someone dtg akhir lagi, at least betambah jua kn =)

Finished the dance today! Well for my part lah, really glad about it, but wasn't really doing it properly today psal sakit badan!! =p But yesterday's game was really worthed!! =') Kinda disappointed not all siputs came =( Sokay~ Aku mseh marah, don't worry ;) haha! Nadawah~ Expected plg sdh tu yg nda dpt dtg atu, but I really hope the whole team nanti main pleaseeee ='(

Also thanks to Ka Zie, Ka Lilah, Zahir, Mimin and Kam for joining that day :D Fun2~ Nantith review kalee~ Like Ali did for our class after every match they had =D Baruya news report! Nda plg pham tu kale =p Nantith explain~

Balik rumah kaka cooked some food, so yea! :D Mum asked me if aku mau ikut ke TM arh nene so aku 'mnasja' kn since entah~ Psal mnasaja lh =D then ttdor again! Around 1.30 mum woke me up psal we have to jln awal hantar kaka kraja then baru ke TM, ...rupanya inda~

Went to Hua Ho Bunut? To do some grocery shopping dulu~ Ok ane siuk =p I mean I didn't bring any money but dapat beli some stuff! :D Haha!! Ok usually I pay for my stuff since kami adi-beradi pretty much berdikari sendiri2~ But since aku jrg request belikn brg, tadi mum mcm "Ane inda kau mau, tu bali th untuk bwa skulah......" :D Haha!!

Indalah ku ambil advantage of it of course~ Guilty ada plg -_- So aku beli foods sja~ Y'know2~ Baik hati sikit 0=p Inda plg~

After helping mum with the shopping baru th ke TM~ Nasrul, Hasya and Danial was there, them 3 are bro&sis and pretty much rapat lah~ But bagiku mcm pyh kn bwa main psal atu -_- and Adwan pun ada! :D

I actually don't know how to deal with kids~ After 16 years baruth first time aku mengangkat a baby! :D And it was Adwan~ And that was this year =)

Ok! Jadi babysitter kan aku today =p

My cousins are mostly damit2 mseh~ The eldest is actually my brother, then my sis, Najib then me out of the cucus!~ And that sounded funny~ =p The rest under 15 years old, but if I include family Tua Miam then I'm the 8th eldest, bro still in the lead~

Since Adwan can walk now so gila~ Mengaleh! Well awu plg wahhhh!~ ='D pandai jln dah but then after some time bubut2 atu aiyoo =/ He was so active time tadi and every time bwa masuk menangis psal kn join them Mia and Nasrul play outside~ So paksa bwa luar, nene laki gave drg this colored chalk yg for marking kain, so habis lantai belukis~

Then after all that masuk :D

...and now jadi pengurut =p I don't actually like to urut psal mengaleh, and honestly c Mia plg handal mengurut2 org but this is for my nene~ Only exception ;)

Was kinda worried actually, since while aku mengurut mcm kaki nene is getting worst =( I mean merisaukn lah~ And she just got out of the hospital last week, balik2 kn this year ='( But she seemed ok tadi =) And was happy that we came, and mum ckp tadi that she might tdor sana for some time to help things out, wah~ I mean usually it's me and my sis sja dari dulu, my mum jrg kn tdor sna since she still have to take care of stuff dirumah then baruth ksana.

I think Imma wait for my sister dulu and baruth join her when ea tdor sana next month :)

Baru ku tebaca ne~ Cool2 =O I think ane c Adwan pnya nene yg belikan, that's his name jua actually, Adwan Rayyan, first cucu of the family, wah~ kena manjai bnar..

Went home after 6 I think, but then singgah jua lagikn ke kdai~ =( Was so tired...

Anyway, while my mum pilih kain itu ini aku jln2 sja~ Then I saw ada this typo =p

Tsktsk~ Bukan nya "today"? I think that's the name of the kain plg =p But was so bored and jobless hantam sja tah for the sake of entertaining diri sendiri =p

Woohoo! Cool2~ Ada jua kain named after me =') But why is it that cheap?? ='(

Twice actually I found this "cool-named-kain" so okaylah~ At least famous ;)

This is for you ;) Inda dpt space, so zero sja =)

Blalalala!! So long eyh this post I didn't realized =p Mbh!

The end!

Nadawah~ :D

But seriously hbs plg dah~ Lpas atu we all balik rumah and I saw a unicorn, leprecon, Mr Bean, barney, Jessica Alba and Love Hewitt... lalala... and I said hi to all of them psal drg pun kn balik dah~ Now I just wish I get to see my powerpuff boy =p

Ok maybe my BattleFury ;)

Boy you put Hershey's outta business

Just read the msg Ka Zimah sent yesterday, inda mempass kn kaka ah~ If inda ku tagih tadi mna ya gtau td tu -_-"

So I was kinda annoyed by it, psal I need to know jadikh inda practice or what time, baik jua ya belum jln, and time kn tanya ea was gonna say it mcm mrh2 =p but was so tired and mls so low voice sja tanya apa the msg, then ntah ngapa ya good mood and sruh check sendiri, atuya nda ku jadi mrh =p haha! Guilty sja krg ;)

So dngan mlsnya aku jln ke dapur and check the phone, then when I opened it...Owahhh!! =O

Discovery!! =O

I should have known awal2! Patutlah!!

Tapuk2 kan kaka ah~ Then inda sengaja time kn check for the inbox yg buka inbox lain =p Eyah! Aku act nada sja but kn ktawa plg ;p Ok~ Nda make sense kalee =p

My point is I didn't expect it =p I mean between aku, mia and kaka, them two lagi more easier to talk to or apakah with people especially yg not their age, even family or stuff to be honest I feel like I'm the black sheep of the family ='( haha! Sdg~ Hmm... but I mean drg lah pandai melayan~ Ganya when it comes to strangers opposite plg =p

So lagi my point to my point! I have this thing where I assume my sis can't trust guys and if awupun ya ne marijap or memilih lah =p Psal to those yg pham she had a baa, and this baa kana lecture tngah2 mlm by her, which I 'accidentally overheard' psal bsar kalee ah~ So to that guy yg stole her heart now, brainwash ya so ya lagi baik to her adi oright ='( Kesian kami~ Other than that, wah~ Handal jua kau ;)

I hope inda kena baca ne by her =O If adapun hmm ;)

Since kaka bising msatu I think I can do the same thing too right? To be fair? Y'know~ Part gtau babu about it? ;p Seh! HAHA! Tattletale~ C mia plg pandai keep a secret ane wah :D But seriously, aku mau buat! I wanna see her kana tanya the same questions yg kana tembak uleh babu =p Which was kinda funny instead of marijap plg, but still! =p

Oh and I'm stuck at home for today =( and home alone lagi most of the time this week =/

No transport ah now, and even if I wait for my dad balik krg, mia krg sorang2~ So my mum sruh aku stay sja dangani ea till ea skulah ptg which if aku ke skulah pun at that time habis kale dah practice =( Sorry ka zimah I didn't come to school

And was kinda hoping to see zeerul too but huhu! ='( Sokay~ Oh! Since it's past 10.15am his exam should be over by now, so good luck with your games sja then! :D I did wake up at 3am td ;) But then sambung jua tdor~ Krg th revise =p

Woke up early then tdor then kena bangunkn lagi tadi psal mum wanted me to fix the telephone line -_-" Aiyoo~ Nyaman sudah tdor, last time I just tarik the wireless connection and it'd be fine now tadi andang sdh betarik so antah apakh lagi msalah nya, was too sleepy to find out -_- Sepatutnya the modem inda kacau the telephone line but sometimes ada th tu~ ertinya the problem was not fixed last time =( Hopefully krg baik sendiri~

Harta karun, di dagu, mu

Me no like spider

Mia sang to this song a few nights ago -_- Ntah~ was so random, mcm nda sadar I was there lagitu~ But woooh! Lama dh nda dngar this song =p Memories2~ I remember we have another version of this with syaf and nab, and we included zul and ali =p Were so much closer back then~ That was the last year of ugama I think =)

Nah~ simpsons =p

Appreciated

I feel troubled =(

I accidentally read something from one of my teachers yg made me realized how hard it is for them mcm kn help us and all~ And we've done nothing to help~ Mcm I think menyusahkn th plg lagi =/

Ntah~ I feel like I should do something right now =/

So I just told my classmates if they agree about doing something for all of the teachers yg ajar kami :) Hopefully drg smua mau~ Since I've already pointed out that I'm not asking any $$ from them and maybe if ku sanggup I'll just provide the cards~

To all the teachers out there :)

And the usual "without you... most important job... sacrifice..." speech that we all know~

But I really do appreciate what you guys did :)

I'm sure we all do~

Although I won't deny that sometimes I've said some things or wished or thought or anything that I know a student shouldn't have =p

Well as a person bullehlah kn~ We all have opinions =)

Nene laki was actually an ex-principle of this school =p I can't remember the name -_- Most of my aunts and bungsu followed his steps and became a teacher~

So happy teachers' day! =D

There is two teachers in this world that I truly cannot tell how much they've helped me and changed my life and how much I really appreciate them =)

Without them I wouldn't be here

Without them I wouldn't be able to succeed

Without them I wouldn't be half the person I am today

Without them I don't think I'd care

Of course all my teachers have helped me in a way =) But to me, Ckg Zul and Ckg Tinah were the ones that really reached out =') I am so glad! Psal I was such a uhmm =p Kinda a bad student back then~ And I didn't bother to ask for help or study~

But they both still managed to play their role as a teacher, in fact more than that =') Somehow I feel mcm drg was really trying to help you, not just psal it's their job, and they even treat you as someone worthed wah~ Mcm ntah! =p and I don't think they both realized just how much they've helped us =')

This is Ckg Tinah =)

She is no longer teaching

And she never was my teacher actually

But she is a teacher

And this teacher is in fact my aunt

My aunt who have helped me a lot

Even when I was stubborn or was so lazy or didn't seem to care to ask for it

She was there =')

I was a little girl~

I was not her student~

But she still did everything she could to help me prepare for an exam

I got all As with her help

After all her hard work trying to help me

She still gave me a gift for a success that was really hers

She did more than my own teacher have done

I wouldn't forget her sacrifices

Maybe I was too young to say thank you back then

Years later she's a mother

I had a project and I need a printer

I missed the due date in fact =p

Called last minute and she offered her help

Spent the whole day there trying to finish up my work

Couldn't do it within a day

So I came again the next day

She was busier than the last time I was there

I could sense that she was probably tired

But still, she offered to give a massage =')

I got a B for that subject :)

Maybe I was too shy to show my appreciation back then

So here I am years later

About to have another exam

I hope it'll go well :)

"To my wonderful Angah Tinah

Thank you so much for all you support, love and effort!

Thank you for caring and trying to help,

I may not talk that much,

But know that I truly appreciate all that you've done

♥

♥

♥

-Syimah

And Happy B'lated birthday! =D

May god bless you

&

May there be more teachers like you"

Emo session ends here

K bye!

=p

Such tragedy

Yesterday during break time....

Poor lil bird ='(

Dunno how it happened but then some pointed arh the fan as a possible COD~ Maybe~ Ntah we couldn't find the head~

I had a pet bird before =') Well 2 actually =) I don't remember who bought it~ Then mcm kesian drg in a cage and I think I let one out =p haha! Then tinggal 1~ But then atu kena bebaskn jua akhirnya =')

And I've had 2 baby birds yg ku prnah jumpa testuck time hujan psal the fur or something2~ yg buat drg mcm ntah~ Sedih ah muka drg ='( One was a long time ago before Mia was born I think~ Or maybe damit mseh and I remembered aku batah2 dibawah psal kn dangani the bird smpai my parents thought aku hilang =p That was arh rumah lama~

The recent one was actually this year, it was so little and mcm somehow you could sense yg drg sedih wah ='( Mia found it and we both stayed outside buatkn rumah then dad showed up and sruh masuk =p But then it flew away =')

This was taken last week on Sunday night before Zeerul came psal it was a mess dibwh and I was still home alone so pnyap2 then jumpa ='( It's a spider with a leg on his left side and 3 on his right side only ='(

And I saw nearby ada those bass-player-tard-lover ants mcm makan the legs ;( I don't like spiders but then kesian ku meliat ya kn lari pyh2 ='( Last week kalee on the same night ada this 2 big spiders marijap! =p It was heading my way mcm belarinya lagi laju, I think ea ingat aku tdor =p So time aku tekajut ea pn tekajut =p

Mcm aku yg responsible psal ane kn rasanya =/

To all the animals that I've taken care of or maybe knal aku~ JIC you're reading this~ I'm really sorry~ ='( Somehow I feel like I give out bad luck to you guys ='(

To my:

...sweet little turtle, I still feel a bit guilty for not giving you a proper home =( If only I did then you wouldn't have fell off or something and the maid wouldn't have swept you away ='(

...stranger cat =)

...newbie cat~ I've only had you for a day~ ='(

...lucky but then less than a day little fishies =p

And mostly to this wonderful cat that took me a VERY long time to bond with =') Found her the 1st year we moved here during fasting month I think =) But it slowly jinak-ed around me :D and I hid her for a few months tapuk2 bagi mkn before my parents gave up and let us have her as an unofficial pet of the family =)

This cat is really weird, first the fur unique mcm silver =) Then... Blalala~ You're not interested with that =p haha! Ntah thing is it gave birth and lalala ada family lalala during ugama my parents tapuk2 buang lalala was really sad lalala~ Somehow she knew lalala 3 of anaknya ya tapuk arh the house ats lalalalalala

5 years later

I saw her son =p haha! drama eyh~ But I'm serious~ The 3 other cats yg survived dari kena buang atu is now all grown up~ One of it sama brabis mcm ea but I tried to bond with it, and then my mum mcm nda sruh or mrh2 arh the cat then it got sick and last2 it was my mum yg sedih2 psal ea bsalah ='( I didn't have to take care of it this time, now mcm my mum wah! She's the one yg mrh2~ Then ya buatkn selimut and something but it refused to eat ='( I have no clue where the other one is but the one yg I saw is now the only one left of this 5 years journey =')

HAHA! I feel like such a loser right now =( Sdhth fail kn menjaga~ Mcm gila plg =p Nyeh~ Biarcia =)

=O

I had a fever yesterday =p Well it actually started on Tuesday but I was still feeling okay at that time~ Then before 12am I was feeling so hot ;) haha! Ntah then cold~ Shivering but then panas~ Mcm fever lah!~ But I was so confused at that time -_- All I want is sleep and I know that's what I need but mcm everything is against it psal I was awake mseh after trying for hours~

Then paning lagi -_- The last time I had a fever was before PSR I think? :D Not yg the exam~ Pesta sukan remaja lh which was last year? We have a week to learn 10mins of this dance routine and I got sick, can actually be excused for 3 days but psal rushing and all dtg jua -_-

And then last night I couldn't handle it~ Te flash back cia, if dulu2 I'd just mc or text anty~ Now we don't have an anty neither do I have my hp =p So befikirth ku~ Mcm I need help~ I want to sleep it off but nda dpt~ Yth susah wah awake atu -_-

First choice kn arh bilik kaka, gtau ea sja psal last year tdor sna sja if ada papa~ But then ane ya start kraja dh and she just got back so menyusahkn jua tu~ Then abg closest room but then ya ane apa jua kn dibuatnya -_- So paksa th ku bawa diri ke bawah =(

Gila yoh paning~ =p But goal ku kn kena urut kepala ;) So dengan selimut ku and all turun tangga then rehat ku dulu arh the tv room ;p Saw the clock it was 3.30 sumthing~ And slowwww bnar msa begarak that time -_- Then I made my way to my parents room :D haha! Blalalalala~ Akhirnya about 5am baruth my eyes kn kelos~

Went to the clinic late psal I was sleeping sja~ Pyh2 ku kn tdor wah =( So once dpt atu baikth sambung knkn~=) It was my 1st time arh this clinic, usually arh Dr Thilagam ;) I think that's how ea kena spell~ Not jk 0=)

And instead of going home mum bawa ke nene~ First thing I did sampai sana tarus tdor~ :D Was so tired! 6 hours later then I was feeling fine :D But I was a mess~ =p And my hair mseh ada yg minyak kelapa~ nyeh~ =p

While I was sleeping rupanya my mum went home -_- She got back later with dad and mia~ And he got news yg my nene di sardang just passed away ='O I just saw her 2 days ago~ And it was sad plg =( Psal ntah~ All this breathing aids? And her leg yg tapak nya ada mcm hitam2 psal the cell mati dah~ Like the one zeerul showed but ane mcm ntah~~ ='(

Al-Fatihah

The last time I saw you

I don't remember much on what happened this day =p

Oh! It was late night~ Not that late~ Ka amoi's mum called kn raya at our house so we waited for them psal mum was all ready kn panyap kuih -_- Neway, when ada this car parked dpn I told mum drg dtg~

Mum: Brapa buah drg?

The 3rd daughter of mum: Sebuah jua sja tu

Mum: Sebuah saja kh?

Me: Awu~ Eh! Dua buah bo~

Mum: Ah dua buah kh?

Me: Awu dua ganya

Mia: Mnada~ Tiga buah jua tu

Me: Ah! Mana? Ada lagikn?

Mia: Tu sana~

Me: Owh~ Awu bo tiga buah

Mum: Waduh! Tiga buah!?

HAHA! =p I thought that was funny~ But then buka pintu~ about 8 people jua ganya~ Cheh~ Suspend banar ;p Rupanya the other two cars boyfriend ka moi and jibah's yg drive~ Hila!~ They both looked so 'mature-er' and ka moi mcm 'cina-er' =p Jibah if I'm not mistaken is a year+ older than me. When mum asked mama ka moi siapa drive the other cars, reaction muka nya cali mcm 'siapa lagi~' but she did say that: "Siapa lagi if bukan boy-boy durang" I think ;p

It was weird~ Mcm I feel like a little kid around them =/ Psal they acted so entah!~ Mcm bsar banar dah wah ='( Gila!~

Oh well~ Enjoy your life while you're still a kid, you're only a kid once right? :D

Do I even still look like a kid? =p Ntah~ I feel like one around my cousins nowadays~ Arh my mum's mostly kids~ Yg inda kids they're all boys~ Unless ada tua Miam :) Which is sometimes pyh~ Drg adi-beradi rapat usulnya and it takes some time for me to readjust kn ckp sma drg =p My father's side~ Hila ane all kids banar -_- Inda plg~ =p My father's side is kinda complicated aku kn faham, I want to know the story plg but malu kn tanya~ They probably expect me to know sdh~ =p

All I know is that my dad has two brothers, he's the eldest~ Their mom passed away when they were young I think psal I remembered my mum telling me yg this women asuh my dad time ea damit and dad always tell me dulu2 rajin2 th blajar~ Psal time ea damit he never go out or ikut his dad jln2 sja~ then ended up dpt blajar di luar =O

So yg all kids ane arh adi-beradi tiri nya plg =p I'm not saying complicated inda rapat relationship eyh! Maybe a bit awkward~ =p If dipikirkn I'm more closer to yg my dad's youngest bro pnya daughter~ Dude! Drg dua ane mcm clones ne! ;p haha!! Even dua2 ada misai! Attitude sja lain~ Wait, I think ada jualh sma, yg main tangguh2 ;p

So angah yusof yg the 3rd bro, her daughter yg closest umurnya with me c atik~ Gila yoh! -_- How they think is so grown up wah! ='( I feel left behind~ Time raya at their place I wanted to borrow her chem notes, she's an express student btw =p I mean her mum makes sure drg belajar and all if exam apa~ And her dad always compare us both~ Neway! You know what we talked about?? Studies!!! Career! and Scholarship! =O I know nothing about it ;p haha!! Gila mcm I seriously feel like I should catch up with my cousins~ Mcm act how they act?? =p

Ntah eyh! =p

And speaking of my dad's bro, angah roslan, the 2nd =O Ok I forgot this year is their first year raya-ing without a mother/wife =( She passed away last year (bless her) because of diabetes, she didn't want her legs to be amputated and she didn't survive~ It was sad, because nene laki cried about it psal it reminded him of dad's mum jua..... so I have lots to churchat about this but then I would go out topic ;p

Neway the mum was a good women, psal ea slalu asuh kids I think =) but they have 3 daughters~ And to prove that my cousins ane mcm is growing up too fast~ 2 of the eldest beraya-ed with their bf arh angah yusof, and from what I head dari c atik drg kn planning kn bekawin!!! WTH! =O =O =O

You guys are young!! =O

Forgive me if I'm being judgmental~ Ok I'm actually not that close with them, walaupun first cousin but I rarely see them or talk to them~ But mcm ntah eyh~ Lain rasanya wah =( Something is bothering me and let me say that I shall keep this something to myself ;p

Oooh~ I wanted to ask my dad about this but I ALWAYS forgot~ The 3 brothers, dad, angah roslan and yusuf all ada daughters kan~ Don't know =p Well I just told you~ So the first daughter namanya Amal wah! For all three =p And we all call three of them by the name'Amal' jua ;D haha!! It's so confusing plg~ But we rarely get all 3 amals at one place :D

And congratulations to Najib! But Wth dude!! =O Ntah eh~ Congrats~ Congrats~ ;p If I'm not mistaken you got 9Os for your Olvls and all As and lots of this * thing? :D That's suppose to mean really outstanding right? Yea... again wth? =O Mcm hila! It really took me by surprise I mean one, I thought Olvl kluar dah then mum reminded me ea JIS and second mcm we both fooled around when we were kids so mcm aku ada this impression yg kau bkn geeky person =p Well you don't look like one -_- And he's also way mature sdh usulnya ='(

Lesson of the day dude =p My cousins are all geared up for their future and I'm still goofing around playing with ma halo~~ halo~~ 0=) haha! Ntah! Imma study tomorrow lah :D

Guess what

Been really busy lately, and ngaleh~ Gonna update later sja =p patutnya hols relax~ Inda sama lagi usulnya hols dulu sma now ='(

And nene arh hospital again =( I think this is her 2nd time within 30 days stay sana? I'm really worried psal she can get really stubborn, and last month time ea pajal mau balik rmah, ada time aku urut-ed her, kaki nene mcm bruised and worrying lah ='(

And sungkai tadi mom talked about them considering pkai battery something, y'know~ surgery, psal nene ngaleh2 and mcm lamah2 sja~ aku diam2 sja, wasn't paying much attention psal takut =(

My brother wants me in his class -_- Again! I know intention nya baik and I must've kinda disappoint him tadi =/ Psal I don't want to~ for some reason I can't explain~ Slalu plg cemani, since PSR~ and aku slalu avoid~ Sorry bro =/ Panjang ne kalee if ku explain knapa~ and gpun his students ada yg mcm prnah hurt aku in a way -_- Ms students I mean, yth kajut ku drg arh class nya -_-

D&t pun I came late tadi psal lalah last night~ I came 11.40-ish kalee and patutnya pkul 8 -_- Was really glad sir zaki mcm pham2 tadi =) The girls ckp sir mrh2 awal2 psal stress kale and we're not supposed to have class but sirs sacrifice jua which I really appreciate =)

This post is longer than I expected, gonna post the rest later~

Another Birthday!

Happy Birthday! To my annoying little sister :)

Wah~ Tua ko sdh lating =p 2 digit numbers dah ne ;)

Anyway I wasn't home during her birthday~ Kesian plg, psal she was like "aww kaka jlnkah =("

Sorry :)

Out of all 4 of us, or all of us in fact, in the family lah~ She is the least ego when it comes to saying what she feels~ Because ntah ah~ Mcm our family inda plg inda rapat, but inda jua rapat-er mcm uhm... ntah =p But mcm we tend to not tell some stuff and mcm awkward sdikit when ada stuff...... blah! :D Ntah~ Pokoknya to show our emotion atu pelik rasanya =p

So yea, the way each of us show that we care mcm payah2an lh cematu =p But c Mia inda so mcm Oooo~ Ada one day we were home alone, mcm our house sunyi slalu and it was just me and her~ So we got bored and main2 lah and it was actually fun~ And then macam tarus2 ea hug and I was mcm wookayy~ How should I react? =p So Aku mcm 'Bhapa kan kau ane Mia?' and mcm smoothly pushed her but inda jua kuat menulak ane =p

Then mcm ea........ ok fine~ Mcm she said something sweet lah =') And aku mcm malu and inda tau cna kn cakap so mcm 'antah kau eh' =p Mcm I don't know knapa aku kn show mcm mrh th plg but then mcm senyum2~ But I think she knew psal ea senyum th jua =p Pelik!!

I think I overused the word 'mcm' eyh disini =p

But actually aku ksian kn ea ane jua =p I mean mcm as it goes down, dari my brother, my sister, me then her. Mcm our parents inda lagi brapa outgoing~ And at least during our childhood kami smua damit2 mseh so it was fun, playing outside and all~ Jerudong park was more fun back then and we spent more time together dari main games or busy with work and all.

But now mcm we have our own room, school, work and mcm busy sja~ yth ksian plg ku =p I mean ntah~ Nanti th ku bawa travel the world :) Seh! That was my dream kali tu ah ;) And still is :)

But mcm yg paling siuk my brother lah~ And sister, they both were born in the UK and mcm main snow and all, except my sis kale psal ea kna bwa Brunei I think~ So I was the first child to be born in Brunei~ :) Then Mia~

And now she's all grown up~ And I don't know =p I feel as if I owe her something as her sister and I don't know what~ I got the girls together at school and sang a birthday song for her before naik kreta and mcm then ea ego -_- I dunno, I guess ea ane opposite~ Arh urg lain th plg ego~

Happy Birthday =)

This was last year photos and it was kinda emotional for some reason =/ I don't remember~ But my mum lah tu yg start nangis then c mia =p Ntah~ But pokoknya she wanted this game, yg NDS ah~ mcm balik2 dah ya mau~ And akhirnya we got her one for her birthday which was last year~

But~ Abg pnya idea kami buat prank ;p

We did got her Nds, but kami kluarkn the game then lapis the box sja ;p haha! Jahat plg~ but mcm ntah =p So ea happy2 lah mcm tau sdh apa~ Then kosong =p haha!! Gila! Jahat lah abg psal ea mcm ckp, "Nah~ Happy birthday, kami balikan kau kutaknya sja ok dah tu" =p

So yea, she's actually kinda lucky jua~ The year before she wanted a bicycle jua and tapuk2 kami got her one as well :) See how nice we are ;) Well parents ku plg tu, and my brother lah yg did most of the job =p

Wahhh~ Gila kalee, mengenang banar jua aku ane =p Mbah! Adang!~ Inda jua kena baca ne =p The end sja ;) Bye2~

Happy Birthday!

To our beloved nene :)

Amit Siti did a surprise cake appearance from the back kitchen door after sungkai while nene was just sitting around. Not all of us knew at first tho, we really thought she was gonna go out and sungkai luar with her husband and Adwan. And I overheard nene laki asked amit Disdy, her husband, where they were planning to go, but mcm he was like, 'adaler'~ And buang kes =p

So as it turns out, it was actually a plan, I'm not sure but I think during sungkai, while we were eating and all, they went out and got the cake =) It was kinda funny, psal nene mcm hiding, inda plg~ But we couldn't find her at first~ Pindah2~ Rupanya hampir =O Nasib jua inda spoil :D

Mia got her chance to potong the cake jua~ Psal it's her birthday tomorrow =) Lucky wah ya ne -_- I mean asai gave her 'Ka-chinng$' as a gift~ I think last year jua~ So jadi yearly th ne ya kna bagi cemani~ Wahh~ Psal mcm everytime ada urg ckp, 'eyh esuk c Mia lagi ne' so ada cia yg 'ah, yakah~ Nah $10' =O

Stole this picture from my sister's blog =p

Nah~ As quoted by her

"left to right: my usu rafi, my handsome nene laki, my nene bini, and my amit erol"

And that night was kinda interesting =) Adwan had his first taste makan cake =O And his mom and dad inda lagi tau tu =p Psal it was bungsu yg cuba bagi makan~ Nene was there so mcm inda as jahat-er jua tu ;) Psal nene inda jua melarang :D So calilh~ It was my first time seeing a kid so hyper psal cake =p

And he's still a baby, I don't think he's even 1 yet~ So mcm awl2 he was looking at everyone with this paper plate dngan cake yth bungsu kesiankn bagi dikit~ Then gila!! Ea ktawa wah, lumpat2 and mcm senyum2 brabis =O Mcm it was really funny~ Then sudah habis the cake dlm mulutnya ea stay still -_- And mcm liat the cake brabis, then mcm tunjuk2~ If nda kena layan mcm ea beteriak and mrh =p Pelik!! I mean baby wah tu~ Pandai jua sdh kn tau apa nyaman =p

And I don't think a lot of people know~ But I don't eat birthday cake much :) I rarely do~ I know it's nyaman but mcm ehh... I don't hate cakes, love em! =D Esp how they were decorated and mcm lawalh~ =') I still wish I could work at a bakery or something :)

And Ooo~ I just noticed recently, it's actually 'nini' not 'nene' =p But me and my sis, and I dunno if it's the same for some others, but we both use that spelling, you know~ With an 'e' :p Not that it matters, well I just found out =p I guess it's because we always call her by 'ne' so when we use it fully we automatically double it~ so nene =D Does that make sense at all? No? =p

Ok the end! :)

Wait~ Another quote!

"my nene, hajah raden wiano sastra wijaya. we will always love you!"

Ok =)

Bye!

Awake

Finally managed to force my leg to move and stand up :)

So I went down and my bro and his friend, abg Shahrul main game~ I forgot to greet him, bday nya sma mcm mia =) Now them guys ambil kaka arh rizqun~

I was hungry, searched the kitchen and uh =/

Did another experiment with milo just now! =D Woooh! Lots of sugary taste tonight =p

Experiment #2 was better than the last one :D Milo 2 spoons, and I added oatmeal then milk 'a lil' =) Mix em mix n mix! Sdh pekat siap cia 0=) Simple plg to be called an experiment but duli ya! ;p

It was really sweet~ so makan sikit sja~ and it was chewy psal ada oats =) Left it in the fridge maybe if tinggalkan jadi cake? Krg lh liat sahur =p

Brush ma teeth~ washed my face~ and now I'm awake~

I wake up it's a bad dream, no one on my side

I woke up at exactly 7am today =O

Really early~ "Terbangun" plg bnarnya because I had a bad dream. It was a really weird dream, I actually spent dari tadi merecap on what happened and drew it out, but mcm suspend and panjang so I just saved it and not post it :P Psal I'm really that bad at summarizing, panjang wah once I write, mcm ntah~

I didn't go back to sleep because I cried =/ Instead aku cari arh google apa meaningnya but nda dpt~ This is my first time seeing it in my dreams, 3rd if campur my past experience, inda plg sama but how it made me feel is almost the same~

What the hell am I talking about? =p haha!

Anewah!!

Well awal2 cool plg but something happened~ Atu ane atu ane so mcm makin teruk lh mimpi atu =p

A flock of birds =O Saw this last year arh kami pnya area. Y'know our house bersebalahan dngan my cousin and these two house sja tinggal arh this bukit so mcm marijap lh~ Inda plg deserted, but I mean arh 'bukit' atu kami sja, psal ada plg other houses, and hampir plg~

That pic okay jua, psal mcm drg migrating but yg last year I dunno. My dad ckp drg makan the small birds psal musim hujan yth mcm the birds trabang2 on one spot. And that spot exactly between my house and ka fiqah's =O So hampir wah~ Gnya tinggi~ And I actually recorded it, only I dunno where I saved it -_-

That was my 2nd time, yg my first experience ='O

To be honest ane inda plg sama =p And it's far worst actually~ to me lah~ psal yg the last two baik jua dari jauh and aku cm takut sja psal pelik~ But this one is the worst day of my life!! GILA! ='( I hate that day~ was hoping with all my heart atu mimpi but ='( It was the scariest moment lh and I don't think I'll ever forget it, mcm mental kalee face-to-face dngan fear ku wah ='(

It's not even a day wah, mcm a few hours but seksa ='( and I was alone~ Luckily that time kami mseh ada anty =) Yes~ A maid, I don't like it when people disrespect them because of their low rank job but still, they have feelings and is actually older =) So respect lah sikit -_- Inda jua smua 'jahat' some sja =p

So yea, she kinda saved me =D Kinda have goosebumps reminiscing that time =(

Mcm messy apa yg ku ckp ane =p Inda make sense? Haha!! Biarcia~ ;p

Kids

Yesterday sungkai-ed arh nene again =)

Nothing much happened~ But someone curchated at me and I found it quite funny, not what he churchated~ ok maybe a little about that =p (Awuuwah sorry if kau baca~ drama jua cana ;) I mean the fact that ea considered to tell me all these lh~ Psal we've been busy with our own lives sdh and cam jrg-er dh berjumpa but he seems to be open about telling me his problems which was Ooooo~ =D

Growing up slalu main with him and his bros, yg smua guys ane~ Yth ganya kraja kami tu dulu =p Game, game, game, game, snacks, games!~ So we were pretty close~ oklah jua~ Psal their dad strict skit and if drg mau main game kh apa pyh2an and my bro suka games and so I play them jua and knew quite a lot about some of it and yth jadi connection kami tu =p I guess that bond is still there =)

And this dude yg churchat ane is actually kinda like me in a way =p Mcm if becerita pyh2an wah~ =p Neway~ all the luck to you cuz ;) In this 'drama' =p haha!!

"I trust you kay"

That was sweet =p He told me once last year he's afraid of girls at school -ish~ and not sure if ea berchurchat dngan his guys friends so he was kinda shy kn time gtau aku but then mau~ yth it's kinda funny ;p I wonder if all guys ada issue mcm ea ane :D

Btw~ You're still young dude! So drama eyh =p Kalah kaka~ Nah~ This below pic is for you =p Growing up dah ne ;)

Okay~ Banarnya nada plg kena mengena tu =p Aku ambil psal ada word 'kids' sja ;p haha!!

No electricity!!

...dari ku balik skulah till 10pm tadi~ Sampat plg td lagi main rockband then makan lambat2 before Pieewwpssztt~ Off lampu one by one~ Huuhhh creepy =p But siang mseh so phew~ Well siang-ish lah~ 6.30pm+ so still got light~

It was dull at first, boring nda kn dibuat and me and abg alum naik since mls, stay sja bwah, kaka mseh kraja, I think akhir shift nya today =/ Then abg conquer the kerusi yg arh bilik tv tdor sna, so arh bilik tamu sja th ku kn try tdor~ But my mum mcm biasa nda suka cni2, siapa jua -_- yath bwa jln ke mum's and was hoping the electricity would be back on when we get back.

Aku mals plg bnarnya kn ikut but cm my mum minta dangani yth bagi my famous answer ;) 'manasja~' then sasak kale babu =p 'kau ane, mnasja2~ ikut sja, jrg sdh bejalan ane'

Oooo~ yakh? :D I didn't know she wanted me to jln bnyak2 ;p

But indalah~ I know plg tu apa maksudnya, kalee~ Psal every time my mum jln with the sistah, aku nda ikut =p Psal cemana jua, time cuti awal2 pagi buta~ And aku slalu akhir bangun, and kna tinggalkn cia slalu :( Kaka plg tu mengatuk inda pro -_- Bsar awu, ganazzz lagi! Cm mmbagi bad mood tarus, annoyed~ mls th ku pduli, sambung sja tdor~ skalinya inda moody luan damit~ dngar pn ku inda =/

Neway jln ke mums yg menglait kh? Ntah, but that place yg ada half price atulah~ And rupanya pelanggang setia ne my mum sma c mia ane, pemes dah dikenali yg kraja sna =O And time otw ke sana pelik, psal my mum was talking/asking me about family c zeerul =p

It was ntah, cali? Psal ntah, peliklh~ and kinda tekajut jua psal my mum inda mind and ntah open and cam accepted dh psal I thought my mum ane strict-er when it comes to this lh~ well awu plg but ntah~ :D Inda plg ea Q&E but more like ea yg becerita and tau lagi ya bnyak dari aku, so kirakn mcm my mum mengenang kembali zaman ea dulu2 sma aunty kamariah c zeerul =)

It was fun? haha, ntah but cam pelik wah, it's kinda rare for my parents kn becerita2 deep2 and that time cam as if aku becerita dngan my friends, eath cam woow~ Ok most of the time my mum plg yg becakap since aku 'awuu~ ah?~ yawah? entah~ banarwh?' stuff like that :D Haha! Psal mana ku tau, and she was asking me stuff cm sama kh inda mseh familynya like it used to be :) It was fun lah, daughter and mum moment :D seh~ haha! Apakn~ bnar jua tu, jrg wh tu terjadi =') And weird jua lah, since now I know a bit more about his family dari my mum plg =O haha!

"Apatah lelaki ane, cemana usulnya, baik~?"

Haha! Atu cali~ Psal my mum sampat lagi mensqueeze question atu before kn kluar kreta, it was me and her plg sja, psal mia kluar awl =) So aku malu2~ jawab ea jahat~ emo~ deep~ ;) haha!! Nada wah~ Awuwah~ I think I said si dia baik~ Knapa jua ku kn aga yg jahat, and cam care for his friends, I think eyh~ ;p awulah~ psal nda jua ku ingat exact word yg I said knkn :) Then she asked cemana buleh, and aku blank cam ntah cemana apa? Rupanya she wants to know y'know y'know~ ada anak2 soalan lagi, cali lah psal kn kluar kreta kaliah~ but alum =p

Bila balik rumah 8+ alum buka karan =( Rupanya the truck yg supposed to usai the power thing di bawah bukit atu termasuk longkang -_- Now, instead of usai-ing the karan people kn get the truck out~ Luckily nada injured, so we waited lagi~ And smua family akhirnya dibawah nada beparam dlm bilik~ Even jiran/cousin kami sbalah jua~ Kami mcm urg utan sja, diluar =p And I got bitten bnyak by nyamuk =/ alum batah~ Nda tahan masuk -_- sorang2 ah dlm~ since smua diluar~

At 10-ish ON! =D YEA! Then after 10.30-ish OFF lagi!! -_- Hoi!! Kambang eyh~ After 11ish baruth on kalee balik =/ So turun balik~ Mia and abg played PSP arh tangga, and I was tired dh so limpang2 arh bilik tv~ Then main shadow nda dpt tdor =D

Left: Fat rabbit falling down~ Tangannya yg siring~ Yg middle ears nya ;)

Right: Supposed to be a giraffe but nada usul :(

Left: I dunno why aku liat atu macam Rocky! =D

Right: Ehm? Rabbit rocky showing muscle?? =p

Tomorrow carnival~ Tadi all the tables were rearranged, nada seats~ raining lagi :( I saw ka zimah and menumpang/kn curchat arh ea, then rupa-rupanya ada dia =) Overall, today was a weird day, cold day and a cool day =)